Well, it's almost 2:00 in the morning, and I can't sleep. I'm tired, but I can't sleep. I've turned my light off and back on three times, same thing with my computer. I hate it. I guess I'll have to get myself some Tylenol PM. I didn't even take a nap today. I'm reading a book I got from the "Friends of the Library" Wednesday at the Lakeland Library. Great deal on two hardback books – one by Amanda Quick and one by Jayne Ann Krentz, who are actually both the same person. I also just watched "The Real Housewives of New Jersey" or something like that, it's like the car accident on the side of the road, you really don't want to look, but you kind of can't help it.
I don't really know why I can't sleep. I do have something weighing heavily on my mind but there's nothing I can do about it. The short version of the LONG story is, I found a media specialist job that I thought would be perfect, but a displaced teacher was put in the job instead. It makes me frustrated and angry. I can't do anything about it, so dwelling on it is useless but I keep trying to find some way around it. Ever since I found out, I've been in a foul mood and even Publix cake didn't make it all better. It just irritates me beyond belief that my buddies and I have spent 2 ½ years working our butts off in this program, learning to be leaders and media specialists, and there's no opportunity to do anything with what we've learned.
So what does one do when one can't sleep at night? Well, I'm glad we aren't in school, because I would be even more stressed if I knew I had to teach tomorrow. I read for a while, watch TV for a while (BTW, there's not much good stuff on at 2:00 in the morning) look online, and repeat any combination of the three. I check my grades, check facebook, check my mail. . . .My eyes are heavy, but my brain just won't shut off. So, I try to make myself go to sleep and I just am more stressed because I can't. I guess I could get dressed and go to Wal-Mart. I could just keep watching mindless TV and commercials that are even more mindless but I keep laughing at the stupid stuff for sale.
Maybe I can go to sleep now. I can only hope.
